So as of today we are T-minus 38 days out from my little man's due date. This pregnancy has gone by so. damn. fast its not even funny. No seriously, not funny, in the way that I almost feel less prepared for this kid than I did with my daughter, who sits here happily on my lap watching Netflix as I type away. #momoftheyear Don't get me wrong, I have almost everything that we need Car seat - Check Bassinet - Check Swing - Check Pump - Check Blah, blah, blah But mentally I'm SO not ready, not even freaking close. So let me give you a little bit of background. My first pregnancy with my daughter was amazing until about 30 weeks, which is when it turned into a shit show... two words, Magnesium Sulfate. Labor and delivery was pretty damn easy but the 4 to 6 months that followed were the hardest of my entire life. I had the worst post partum depression and anxiety and became a completely different person, one I to this day don't even recognize. That being said I have been terrified from the moment that the pee stick showcased those two little lines. Why?, because there is no possible way to prepare for the darkness. But wait, let me check myself before I take off into the gloom and doom. There may not be a way to prepare for it, but there is several sure as shit ways to kick its ass. Enter, this blog. I read hundreds of blog posts about post partum depression and anxiety. No, I'm not kidding...HUNDREDS. I found them SO helpful, because when you are in the darkness you feel like you are the only mama in the history of the world that is scared to hold her beautiful baby, or who cries when your husband leaves the house or who just wants to run the fuck away. I hope to God that I can help even one mama who is in that space. AND hopefully by doing so I can keep one foot outside of the darkness as I start this new journey. So welcome to Unlatched Love xx, Sam
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AuthorFull time working mama, anxious /introvert & sometimes chronic over sharer. On the wild runaway train of raising a pre-teen stepdaughter, a sassy toddler and welcoming a newborn. Archives
February 2018
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